I have been lying low for a while now - close to a month now and that is because I have been struggling with motivation and tha ankle has been good and bad from time to time. Although a lot of the swelling has gone down it is still not a normal ankle. I have also been feeling the pressure of close to full time work, the gym, looking after a one year old, not having enough time to spend with hubby and have a chat like we used to pre-baby and feeling like I am failing and so on.
In some ways since the last week things seem to have stabilised. I went to the gym after work 4 times and feel really great, I seem to be eating better than I used to and after ages have been feeling relaxed and chilled out.Gym has become more and more challenging. The fitness trainer I like working with really pushes me and on Tuesdays when I get to the gym, I am usually the only person in the gym and so he really smashes me around. I have still not started to run or anything and wont do so for a while but I have started climbing the stairs as additional cardio in the gym. Last Tuesday, trainer Thom got me to run 12 times up and down the stairs. After two sets of the stairs he was waiting with the boxing gloves and we boxed and I went on for another 2 sets of the stairs - before the stairs there was more cardio I had already done - loads more boxing and cycling and and and...for the first time this century I found that my elbows were slipping on the exercise mat when I was trying to do planks....sweating felt great.
I think mentally I have seen a drastic metamorphosis where when I get home even though my muscles are crying out loud, I am crawling around the floor playing with my little one and when I am in bed I pass out - in other words I sleep really well and have a lot more energy the next day. I love being challenged in the gym aI work really well with Thom as he really pushes me to my limits to the point where if I feel I cannot do something he makes it possible.
However, as a result of all this exercising, I am feeling more hungry and am ending up eating sweet stuff. Now that is something I need to bring under control as I am already running behind on a challenge. I will mention it in another post but basically I am trying to get to gym 5 times a week and also try and eat better and cleaner. The gym bit is doing pretty well and I am making it 4 times a week without a problem - but the food leaves much to be desired. So how about I try again to write a food diary and go no more than 2000 cals a day? I know it sounds like a lot but for someone that is enjoying eating in an unrestricted manner - even this is likely to be a challenge.
Mood for the moment: cheerful, hopeful, enthusiastic
