So this week I weighed myself yesterday pre-lunch and I was at 119.6kg and this morning post breakfast and drinking water and I was shock! horror! 120kgs.
What do I make of this? Well obviously I am disappointed seeing I was so excited yesterday by taking a sneak peak and seeing favourable results only to see a higher figure the next morning. However, I have recorded myself down for 120kgs and not 119.6kgs as I think thats only accurate seeing I weigh myself on Sundays. I also began thinking that it was probably not a great idea for me to get weight obsessed so early in the game and that it was important for me to focus more on my lifestyles than weight. So one step I have taken is to get my husband to record my weight starting next Sunday without showing it to me. I will of course check my weight before my appointment with the naturopath on 31 Jan as I will be discussing this with her but after that I will only be reviewing this fortnightly with an aim to checking my weight monthly only. This way I am focussing on being the best that I can be and not getting waylaid my falling into the abyss of shattering with less results or a gain. I just want to focus on basing my self confidence on the knowledge that I am doing my best. I did weigh myself a few times in the past week which already indicates to me that I am veering towards the dangerzone of revolving around a figure which I absolutely do not want to do. Punctuality is another lesson learned. If I am weighing myself it needs to be first thing in the morning and not randomly at any time during the day.
For me to succeed without looking at the weighing scales all the time or even weekly, I will need to write out a food diary. This I have not been doing. So that has to start from tomorrow and ideally even today. This will keep me in check and tell me where I can trim the fat and do better. Moving my arse is another area that I have been sorot of sluggish in. So 50 mins of exercise per day it is going to have to be. I have already downloaded the 'Couchto5k' on my iphone and I will not be running just yet but in a fortnight I certainly hope so as by then I should be accustomed to do so.
Last but not the least, a pat on the back for losing .60. I know I would have liked more but hey considering I did eat some carb during the course of the week and considering I have not started walking just yet (yeah I am not counting my daily ambles to and fro the shops etc as I stop to make purchases etc), I will take it. It tells me also that I must be on the right track and just have to continue the good work and lift the game a little bit. So I will take the .60 loss gladly and am looking forward to breaking that 120 and getting into the teens in terms of weightloss.
Happy health to all.
The amazing race
Sunday 22 January 2012
Wednesday 18 January 2012
Little Victories Here And There
This week has been an interesting one. On the one hand I have not
walked as much as has been prescribed but then on the other hand I have
thus far (and it is only wed) been consistent. I had a major victory
today when I went to coles to buy some oatmilk. I found that I ended up
in the chocolate aisle as the milks were kept opposite the
chockies....Bastards!! Of course I wasn't expecting this as in the past I
had only ever gone directly to the chockies and so how did I know that
the milk was kept opposite the chockie aisle?
Anyway, I noticed that the cadbury family bar was on special - my very personal favourite - The chocolate mousse.Buy 2 for $6. Oh the offer was too hard to resist. I promptly grabbed two and started to quickly also grab the milk. I walked the aisles thinking of what to do next. Then the negotiations began. I wondered if I could buy something else which would in my head replace "LE STASH". I thought of some hot chocolate sachets - caramel flavoured too and grabbed those. The there was this eternal battle between Coles caramel hot shocolate sachets and the Cadburys Mousse - the Mousse was winning hands down. I walked another few aisles and saw some frozen raspberries on special. It then dawned on me that I had always done what was happening right now. Bargained that I would eat the TWO CHOCOLATE FAMILY BARS once only and then be serious about eating well. My way had not worked and this was all about working WITH my psychologist and naturopath and NOT AGAINST.
So I am proud to report that I put back the chocolate and the hot choc sachets and instead grabbed four 500 gm packets of frozen raspberries in my trolley. I negotiated that at least till the 31 of Jan when I have my appointment with my psychologist and my naturopath I will play good. Again I can onnly take each day as it comes and I know with one good day comes 2 or 3 difficult ones. In retrospect I was very very proud of myself. I felt that this was one of the first times where I decided I would not have it without considering guilt. Usually whenever I have put back chocolate it has been a result of battling with guilt. This was different. It basically acknowledged that I was feeling the need to have the chocolate but also reasoned that it was not a priority and that I would see what I could replace it to take care of the need to eat it. I noticed it was not even a craving. It was just plain and simple the desire to eat the chocolate and nothing more.
On a serious note, I could not help thinking about ETHICS. Australia is the fattest nation in the developed world. I am one of the fatties that contribute to this epidemic. Why is it ethical to place milk, an item of daily consumption opposite the chocolates? Where is the social responsibility of an organisation? Or is it simply enough for Coles to donate money to a non-profit organisation at the cost of hard core heartless advertising? I am not singling out Coles as this is the way each business works. All I can do in my own small way is to make the choice to stop buying milk from Coles as it lies across from the chocolates. I want my daughter to see cheese, eggs, vegetables and fruit 90% of the time when I go to the shops not chocolate each time I buy milk? I will not contribute to 'training' my daughter to notice the chocolates while she accompnies me to buy a basic necessity - milk. I will simply go off to Aldi where this is not the case and the milk sits along with the cheeses and yoghurts. I simply do not want the health heartache and frustrations of weight for my daughter. While I admit I cannot protect her forever and neither do I want to, BUT all I want is for her to grow up learning that while chocolates are tasty and fun, they are to be enjoyed seldom and not daily. Veering off slightly, she loves her natural yoghurt and all her meals are cooked at home. I will devote another blog to all of this but it seems like I am fast getting onto a bandwagon and before I go flying I'd best get off and get some food to eat - Im famished.
Anyway, I noticed that the cadbury family bar was on special - my very personal favourite - The chocolate mousse.Buy 2 for $6. Oh the offer was too hard to resist. I promptly grabbed two and started to quickly also grab the milk. I walked the aisles thinking of what to do next. Then the negotiations began. I wondered if I could buy something else which would in my head replace "LE STASH". I thought of some hot chocolate sachets - caramel flavoured too and grabbed those. The there was this eternal battle between Coles caramel hot shocolate sachets and the Cadburys Mousse - the Mousse was winning hands down. I walked another few aisles and saw some frozen raspberries on special. It then dawned on me that I had always done what was happening right now. Bargained that I would eat the TWO CHOCOLATE FAMILY BARS once only and then be serious about eating well. My way had not worked and this was all about working WITH my psychologist and naturopath and NOT AGAINST.
So I am proud to report that I put back the chocolate and the hot choc sachets and instead grabbed four 500 gm packets of frozen raspberries in my trolley. I negotiated that at least till the 31 of Jan when I have my appointment with my psychologist and my naturopath I will play good. Again I can onnly take each day as it comes and I know with one good day comes 2 or 3 difficult ones. In retrospect I was very very proud of myself. I felt that this was one of the first times where I decided I would not have it without considering guilt. Usually whenever I have put back chocolate it has been a result of battling with guilt. This was different. It basically acknowledged that I was feeling the need to have the chocolate but also reasoned that it was not a priority and that I would see what I could replace it to take care of the need to eat it. I noticed it was not even a craving. It was just plain and simple the desire to eat the chocolate and nothing more.
On a serious note, I could not help thinking about ETHICS. Australia is the fattest nation in the developed world. I am one of the fatties that contribute to this epidemic. Why is it ethical to place milk, an item of daily consumption opposite the chocolates? Where is the social responsibility of an organisation? Or is it simply enough for Coles to donate money to a non-profit organisation at the cost of hard core heartless advertising? I am not singling out Coles as this is the way each business works. All I can do in my own small way is to make the choice to stop buying milk from Coles as it lies across from the chocolates. I want my daughter to see cheese, eggs, vegetables and fruit 90% of the time when I go to the shops not chocolate each time I buy milk? I will not contribute to 'training' my daughter to notice the chocolates while she accompnies me to buy a basic necessity - milk. I will simply go off to Aldi where this is not the case and the milk sits along with the cheeses and yoghurts. I simply do not want the health heartache and frustrations of weight for my daughter. While I admit I cannot protect her forever and neither do I want to, BUT all I want is for her to grow up learning that while chocolates are tasty and fun, they are to be enjoyed seldom and not daily. Veering off slightly, she loves her natural yoghurt and all her meals are cooked at home. I will devote another blog to all of this but it seems like I am fast getting onto a bandwagon and before I go flying I'd best get off and get some food to eat - Im famished.
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