Of course it all came to discovery time once my hubby borrowed my backpack. I had not yet had the chance to transfer the contraband to its secure hideyhole under my clothes in the wardrobe! After initially getting irritated at him borrowing my backpack, I realised that I was really annoyed at the discovery moreso than the bag. I had to ring him and straightaway declare that we needed to chat. We did and I had to admit to myself and to him that I am addicted to sweets. I know I will kill myself if I do not stop. I have a gorgeous daughter to live for and a great husband who makes our life together fun and worth it all.
So today I ate a bowl full of sweets my mum prepared and a whole bar of chocolate and feeling yucky and sick as a dog and wanting to purge I have decided that this is not worth it. There has to be more to it than this. I can't bear to look at anything sweet right now and nows a time as any to set a demanding though not unachievable goal of trying my best not to eat any form of sugar bar the 1/4 spoon in my cuppa tea in the morning for 7 days and see how I go.
The updates from the previous blog is below:
- I turned 41 years old in March
- 5.3 in height
- I weigh just under113.8 kilos
- I have an ankle injury which bothers me when I am tired and I tend to trip on it when tired
- I gave birth to my first child through emergency C section 10 weeks ago
- I had gestational diabetes during my pregnancy
- I am currently breast feeding
The goals for the week are:
- NO SUGAR
- One 30 min walk a day
- Drink 2 litres of water
- Write my food diary everyday for 7 days
- Get back into protein shakes to get the protein up
I will not make this complex as I need a simple start and then will need to build it up. Plans for the near future with continued love and support of my husband are to head back to the gym I like and work best with. He has vowed to help by minding our littlie during lunch time 2 times a week at the gym while I work out. I will work out twice at night just before the gyms closing time when it is less crowded and then again once on Sat when it opens up. This will start in the middle of May when 3 months of mt daughters birth is up which will also coincide with my 3 months of C-section rest. Hence starting with 30 min walks for the moment will be a good way to ease into it.
I know I have an addiction because I have all the signs of an addict wanting a fix. Example: my husband left for work and I could not wait to defrost a pudding my mum made and have the lot. Feeling sick as a dog I then proceeded to open a bar of chocolate and consume the lot. I hated myself for doing that and wanted someone to take charge of me and tie me up and schedule all my meals for me. That was when I decided to take some charge (what was remaining of it) and take a baby step. The other night when hubby and I went for a friends birthday, I was sad we had to leave before dessert coz our little one was beginning to get cranky.. I felt I had missed my fix! and today to start this little step I felt as though I was giving up a lot and so had to make myself sick with sweet to even realise for the nth time that it is so not worth it to have a life of excesses of any type....and sugary, syrupy, decadence in my case. If all this is not a sign of addiction then I do not know what is.
Logging on to and creating an account at calorieking.com.au has meant facing upto the reality even if it bites and itches. Here is the news I received ont he very first page once I keyed in my stats:
Your Body Mass Index indicates that you are obese.
Based on your BMI, you are obese and should aim to reduce your weight to between 47 and 62 kg.Losing this amount of weight will not only affect your appearance but significantly decrease your changes of developing many major health risks such as: diabetes, high cholesterol, high blood pressure, coronary heart disease, stroke and cancer.
Our Recommended Diet Plan
| Target Nutrients | |
|---|---|
| Calories | 1997 cals |
| Kilojoules | 8387.4Kjs |
| Carbs | 249g |
| Fat | 61g |
| Exercise | ~ 45 min walk/day |
In order to reach your weight goal, we recommend consuming no more than these nutrients every day.
Important
These figures assume that you're doing exercise equivalent to ~ 45 min walk/day.
Following this plan, you should lose half to 1 kg a week or about 5 kg by June 1st.
Although officially my first day will start tomorrow, I am giving up sugar and all things sweet starting now 1402hrs. I will try and post everyday. And yes the 30 min walk has just gotten to 45 mins as per caloriekings recommendations which I must say should have been expected. Gotta fly now and get organised and plan my food for tomorrow. Ciao for now and I wish everyone health.
