I am continuing unabated from bad to worse. Today I baked brownies for my husbands office and ended up having a few pieces all on my own. Being laid up with the ankle and of course my food guzzling has meant another increase in weight to 117.8 kilos. In my head, I have this devilish mantra that says "since i cannot move anywhere out of the home then I might as well eat and I will lose all this weight once I can move (as if this approach has worked before)". I am getting more and more tired about all these excuses which I have relied upon before. This is getting scary particularly as it is getting closer and closer to my all time heaviest of 126kilos and I do not want to get there.
I will now plan my meals and try and stick to them. I do not want to put a lot of pressure on myself as this only makes it worse but I do want to have a think about what I am going to eat the next day and plan my day in advance so I know where I am headed. It is also not going to be essential for me to eat all that has been planned coz if I am not hungry then I will not eat it and also all timings are sort of flexible apart from dinner where I want to finish all meals by 7pm and my glass of milk by 8 at the latest.
Breakfast
Oats with oatmilk, half a pear and one strawberry and a cuppa tea
Mid morning
One apple
one cup coffee and one orange
Lunch
One slice bread
Omelette with tuna
Salad: cos lettuce, tomato, 3 olives, low fat feta cheese
Midafternoon
2 mandarins and a cuppa tea
Dinner
Kangaroo and half a piece of bread with salad
Water: 2 litres.
