Little Victories Here And There

This week has been an interesting one. On the one hand I have not walked as much as has been prescribed but then on the other hand I have thus far (and it is only wed) been consistent. I had a major victory today when I went to coles to buy some oatmilk. I found that I ended up in the chocolate aisle as the milks were kept opposite the chockies....Bastards!! Of course I wasn't expecting this as in the past I had only ever gone directly to the chockies and so how did I know that the milk was kept opposite the chockie aisle?


Anyway, I noticed that the cadbury family bar was on special - my very personal favourite - The chocolate mousse.Buy 2 for $6. Oh the offer was too hard to resist. I promptly grabbed two and started to quickly also grab the milk. I walked the aisles thinking of what to do next. Then the negotiations began. I wondered if I could buy something else which would in my head replace "LE STASH". I thought of some hot chocolate sachets - caramel flavoured too and grabbed those. The there was this eternal battle between Coles caramel hot shocolate sachets and the Cadburys Mousse - the Mousse was winning hands down. I walked another few aisles and saw some frozen raspberries on special. It then dawned on me that I had always done what was happening right now. Bargained that I would eat the TWO CHOCOLATE FAMILY BARS once only and then be serious about eating well. My way had not worked and this was all about working WITH my psychologist and naturopath and NOT AGAINST.


So I am proud to report that I put back the chocolate and the hot choc sachets and instead grabbed four 500 gm packets of frozen raspberries in my trolley. I negotiated that at least till the 31 of Jan when I have my appointment with my psychologist and my naturopath I will play good. Again I can onnly take each day as it comes and I know with one good day comes 2 or 3 difficult ones. In retrospect I was very very proud of myself. I felt that this was one of the first times where I decided I would not have it without considering guilt. Usually whenever I have put back chocolate it has been a result of battling with guilt. This was different. It basically acknowledged that I was feeling the need to have the chocolate but also reasoned that it was not a priority and that I would see what I could replace it to take care of the need to eat it. I noticed it was not even a craving. It was just plain and simple the desire to eat the chocolate and nothing more. 

On a serious note, I could not help thinking about ETHICS. Australia is the fattest nation in the developed world. I am one of the fatties that contribute to this epidemic. Why is it ethical to place milk, an item of daily consumption opposite the chocolates? Where is the social responsibility of an organisation? Or is it simply enough for Coles to donate money to a non-profit organisation at the cost of hard core heartless advertising? I am not singling out Coles as this is the way each business works. All I can do in my own small way is to make the choice to stop buying milk from Coles as it lies across from the chocolates. I want my daughter to see cheese, eggs, vegetables and fruit 90% of the time when I go to the shops not chocolate each time I buy milk? I will not contribute to 'training' my daughter to notice the chocolates while she accompnies me to buy a basic necessity - milk. I will simply go off to Aldi where this is not the case and the milk sits along with the cheeses and yoghurts. I simply do not want the health heartache and frustrations of weight for my daughter. While I admit I cannot protect her forever and neither do I want to, BUT all I want is for her to grow up learning that while chocolates are tasty and fun, they are to be enjoyed seldom and not daily. Veering off slightly, she loves her natural yoghurt and all her meals are cooked at home. I will devote another blog to all of this but it seems like I am fast getting onto a bandwagon and before I go flying I'd best get off and get some food to eat - Im famished.